Pissed Off.

I'm seriously annoyed right now. Everything just seems to be getting to me. Like today I just sat at home. I did nothing all day. No one texted me. No one replied to my texts. Just no one gave a fuck. So I decided to try and organize something with a friend because I didn't want to waste the holidays, but it's clear to me that that was a complete waste of time. I  asked her if she wanted to meet up and she agreed but didn't seem very enthusiastic. I continued to try and convince her and in the end she gave up and just said 'Can't you just go with some one else?'. Why did I bother even trying to convince her if I was just being annoying and she obviously would rather do something else than see me. I mean I know it probably seems like a little thing- no big deal right? But the fact that i tried really hard to think of something fun to do and tried to organize it and she just said 'no that would be boring'. And when it's obvious that she's upset me she doesn't bother trying to say sorry or even just show that she cared even a little bit, oh no she just doesn't reply. And I'm sure people are gonna read this and think that I'm just feeling sorry for myself or laugh cause I'm getting pissed off at nothing, but this is just the kind of thing that really annoys me. I know everyone has different things that get to them and people who do stuff like that and don't even notice annoy me. Like, whatever, I'm human everyone gets annoyed- and at them moment, I'm really annoyed.

I just feel like no one cares and no one can be bothered to make the effort and meet up. I just don't feel like i have anyone who actually gets me. Sure I'm not saying no body likes me, because I know if they were asked 'Do you like Prudence?' then they'd say yes. But there's no one who I can say is a bestfriend who i can always rely on or hang out with. There's always some one or something more important. I probably sound spoilt and babyish. And I admit I probably am feeling sorry for myself for no reason- but doesn't everyone?

Well writing that has made it a bit better. I'm still Pissed Off.